An Inglorious Account

I like using words in unusual ways and I think sometimes the ends are justified by the means. To further explain, seeing as that was a rather general statement, the ends are cutting derisive witticisms by means of me using sizable, ostentatious words. I thought 'twas funny, amusing, and somewhat satirical; I know seem to think that it makes me sound like a pretentious idiot who does naught know what he is talking about, well the way some people look at me after mine fanciful remarks it sure seems that way.
Well I am sick of it. I am not stupid, nor am I smart; I am average.

But that really had nothing to do with anything. This is me, ranting to stop from worsening my mental state. I am one more D paper away from quitting the whole damn system. What's worse is that there is no, "you should focus on this", not even a "make one more of these mistakes and I will not grade your next paper". I need something, if I get about five 5+'s in a row, OBVIOUSLY SOMETHING IS WRONG.
I hate AP Language more than I have ever hated a class in my life. I do not hate the teacher, although I suspect she does not like me. Probably because every time I am called on for an answer I over think the answer and then sound like an idiot. Or the fact that I walk in with a horrid attitude that I really don't care to fix. I want out of that class, and damn whatever colleges say. I am sick of hearing about how college justifies torture in high school. The hours you waste taking class you'll never need, the unrelenting stress and torment.
I can't take that excuse anymore. You can waltz into any fucking in state college with the bare requirements because, like in high school, YOU'RE ONLY MONEY TO THEM. (Them being the college/school/whatever else is government funded.)
There is also a lot of work piling up all at once. YEAH WELL FUCK YOU TOO HIGH SCHOOL. I do not want to destroy the building, or lives of others. I just want to not have to go to a high school run by air heads, or worse than that: borderline fascists.
Who knows what stupid thing will be next, it will be something patronizing and angering that's for sure.
Sorry if my prose isn't elegant enough for some, sorry I cannot construct fluid sentences with an aloof tone (just to sound smarter), sorry I cannot find fourteen different ways to say the same damn thing. I just can't take it.
I cannot wait for AP Literature, it is something I care about, something I like reading, something like analyzing. It's easy for me to find literary devices, character flaws, unreliable narrators and such. I worked hard for that, I disciplined most of my synapses to fire when I see or read something that has depth, tone, metaphor, simile, stream of consciousness, anything related to literature of the fictional kind. I do not know how to rhetorically analyze everything. I can sometimes, but not always. And never when it counts. I cannot take a letter or speech someone wrote over 150 years ago and then analyze why they did this, and what they're saying, and how come this and blah blah blah. It just pisses me off, I can do it at a depth than most, and that's still not enough.
Ugh I am so pissed of now I have to go.