As of late, I am finding words are not adequate enough to express my thoughts and ideas. Maybe it is my lack of skill with words to artfully, and actually craft something worth while. Maybe I am expecting too much of myself. Who knows. I am slowly finding I am a visual learner, and I am a tactile and (all redundancies aside) visual person. Which is why film is better for me over, say writing. And even theater. Maybe it is because film is new and exciting. Something I know very little about. Maybe I too will easily become jaded with film as I have with theater, and to an extent writing. Although I do not consider myself an author, nor do I truly wish to aspire to be one.
I want to act in movies, I want to frame shots, I want to direct. I am interested and in love with all aspects of film: editing, sound editing, lighting, costuming. Everything.
And it may sound banal, and trite, but that does not make it any less true.
But I have such high hopes, well, moderately high hopes. But I don't think I am truly dedicated enough to pursue any artistic career.
Oh well.
I just needed to get that off my chest. For my mind is always abuzzin', yes I said "abuzzin'".
I feel a poem coming on...
nope. lost it.