Worst Days of Out Lives; Ad Quod Damnum

Junior year sucks. Every decision I make is the wrong one, no matter what that decision might be.
I got a letter today.
I am pretty sure they don't like us being there. How could they? We're awful people. Well at least that's what I got from the letter. I never want to go there ever again, that's the truth.
I have never felt so ousted and inutile. Not to mention embarrassed, stupid, utterly awful, idiotic, shameful, well hopefully those words get my point across.
I want a torrent of tears to flow from my eyes, but they cannot. They refuse to pass.
I also realized how awful of a friend I am. Is not that fantastic? My family hates me and my friends think I am always mean to them. I am some sort of life ruiner, what's worse is that this post might be for more reasons than I would care to admit. Maybe this is for attention, or maybe this is just how really do feel.
I think it's the latter more than the former.
Oh and this is the same day I was blamed for being unaware of things I was never told.
ha, is not life the best?
I just cannot stress how much anger I feel; I cannot express the anger though. I am way too tired to do so, and I feel sick. Hopefully I will miss school tomorrow. Maybe I need to brood more, or less.
I am one more guilt trip away from exploding. One day I will leave and never return. I honestly hope that happens. (This post is for me and not anyone else)
I also hope I realize in the future how badly I feel. And to never forget this feeling. This is how one grows, this is how one learns.
Basically, you never forget the awful. It's human condition. It is a great way to evolve. Remember the bad and never do what caused the bad ever again.